jolyn dislikes long profiles, they reveal too much, and where's the enigma in that? apart from that, jolyn is also an ugly monster, and if you have something against ugly people, then well, too bad.

jolyn adores music, androgynous boys, shark(boy)s, pink spiders, robots, black and red, the word 'awesome', musicians, and referring to herself as the third person, a trait she picked up from uncle goh.



(in no particular order)

ryan; yiling; elsia; cherie; tharsh; evelynwong; see ler1; see ler2; jumalia; kimberly; denise; dalila; weiping; nurul; shaun; kelvin; jessica; candice; grace; shyaza; chekseen; amirah; jaan; jedidah; nadzirah; juliana; aqilah; charlton; qixuan; aqila; xinyi; sili; samantha; melissa; jolene; nadia; nurul; suetfar; armeeza; joanna; melissa; sakinah; peishi; gurvin; wuyi; yingying; jennifer; dionne; peiwen; zakkiyah; azrina; estee; fiona; germaine; jiaqi; shirlynn; jacqueline; joshua; qianyun;

grouphug; ryan; postsecret; kennysia; xiaxue; levan; translation; dictionary; edison; youtube;

untold prophesy
lingyu
deborah
khairiah
cheryl
alvin

foto decadent ; moargh ; bias-ED.

iPod [video], sharkb0izx 101, scene hair, a lot of clothes, tongue, navel and lip piercings, shopping spree, a million billion trillion gazillion dollars, effective weight loss, accessories, skinnies, BILL!, a lot of moshing, 69 hours in a day, more gigs! ask me and i'll tell you

:(

i am probably the world's dumbest person. why do i let things affect me so much?

it gets so tiring after awhile, being sad. maybe i'll go into depression and just go crazy and die.

watch me dump my baby onto someone else shout "take care of meiting" and then jump straight into the river. (this is to show that i've got my sense of humour back, thank you. even though it isn't really funny. but hey, i laughed until i cried watching that show. omg i cried)

btw, my baby isn't called meiting :D

eh i should go get hysterical and go crazy, and start crying/laughing (HAHA, TV HUMOUR :/) at the same time.

anyway, i want to apologise to halimatul and khairiah and cheryl and deborah and lingyu and yiling and everybody else actually :)

and i want to thank all the people who comforted and consoled me. like stacey, yvonne, zakkiyah, yiling, lingyu, rena, gurvin, siying........and the list goes on. i'm sorry if i didn't include your name here, but i was too busy crying to really notice anything else.

AND I WANT TO TELL SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO SOMEONE: RYAN, CHEER UP! I'M HERE FOR YOU OKAY :))))

i think i'm making a mountain out of a molehill. seriously, i wonder :/ am i neurotic or what?!

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k, enough. i just wanted to say i'm really sorry to my friends whom i've hurt by telling lies or covering up the truth. but once you start lying, you have to continue lying to make your story stick. i'm sorry about that ok? i shall try to stop this thing once and for all.

and friends, because i don't want to lie, i shall have to keep some things quiet. somethings i can't say...i just have no idea why. but i'll try to speak up more often, okay?

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here's a poem, me, yiling and lingyu came up with before tuition yesterday.

i am a mole,
i live in a hole
i swing on a pole
i got no soul
i want to sew
i eat from a bowl
that is so cold!

it's on a yellow balloon i found, it has lots of graffiti on it. and i love that poem la.

i went to lingyu's house and ate a lot of chocolates (sorry). the endorphin kick made me happy for awhile before i went berserk and started crying again. anyways, that was redundant. and hongkong soap dramas are so cute. "MEITING!" and lingyu's sofa is really comfortable to sleep on

and tuition with mr ho was fun, because mr ho is a funny man who calls lingyu kuku, i know. i can't believe i found it amusing.

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today was lib day. after that went out with yiling + denise. lingyu wasn't feeling well. anyway, denise is a really nice person. and i'm sorry if i freak you out with my weird antics (like putting pads into people's baskets, and then running away; tapping watermelon for hollowness; moving 'CLEANING IN PROGRESS' signs around and blocking entry into male toilet, etc.) if you are uncomfortable with me doing anything weird, please tell me :D

and also, the auntie annie in KFC remembers me! she got my name right. just that she called the wrong person (yiling). alvin didn't come to work :( and she lent me her card for discount. haha.

and sitting in courts was fun, talking about piercings and teachers and other weird stuff.

and if you ever want to pierce your ears, please get someone with steady hands. it's just way to creepy. what if she pokes the wrong place instead? and also, we all dislike nose piercings (denise is racist! HAHA OK JOKING, dont hate me)

i shall try not to feel so bad about everything now.

what kills me is that you dont feel as much pain as i do, and you don't even know what the fuck i'm going through. - and i still like you?