&Alexithymia
jolyn dislikes long profiles, they reveal too much, and where's the enigma in that?
apart from that, jolyn is also an ugly monster, and if you have something against ugly people, then well, too bad.
jolyn adores music, androgynous boys, shark(boy)s, pink spiders, robots, black and red, the word 'awesome', musicians, and referring to herself as the third person, a trait she picked up from uncle goh.
&Verona
&Friends
(in no particular order)
ryan;
yiling;
elsia;
cherie;
tharsh;
evelynwong;
see ler1;
see ler2;
jumalia;
kimberly;
denise;
dalila;
weiping;
nurul;
shaun;
kelvin;
jessica;
candice;
grace;
shyaza;
chekseen;
amirah;
jaan;
jedidah;
nadzirah;
juliana;
aqilah;
charlton;
qixuan;
aqila;
xinyi;
sili;
samantha;
melissa;
jolene;
nadia;
nurul;
suetfar;
armeeza;
joanna;
melissa;
sakinah;
peishi;
gurvin;
wuyi;
yingying;
jennifer;
dionne;
peiwen;
zakkiyah;
azrina;
estee;
fiona;
germaine;
jiaqi;
shirlynn;
jacqueline;
joshua;
qianyun;
grouphug;
ryan;
postsecret;
kennysia;
xiaxue;
levan;
translation;
dictionary;
edison;
youtube;
untold prophesy
lingyu
deborah
khairiah
cheryl
alvin
&Gracias
foto decadent ;
moargh ;
bias-ED.
&Wants
iPod [video], sharkb0izx 101, scene hair, a lot of clothes, tongue, navel and lip piercings, shopping spree, a million billion trillion gazillion dollars, effective weight loss, accessories,
skinnies, BILL!, a lot of moshing, 69 hours in a day, more gigs! ask me and i'll tell you
Friday, October 21 // 11:21 pm
reasons why i should kill myself:
1) i'm ugly, sad to say. why am i ugly? is it a serious deformity in my genes? because the rest of the family is pretty/handsome and plain good looking.
2) i'm fat. no more to add on. JUST PLAIN FAT ):
3) i'm stupidly idiotic. i do all the wrong things at the wrong time. i fail tests that are supposedly easy.
4) i can't do the down down up up down (pause) up down strumming when it's easy. happy to say, i FINALLY got it. *claps*
5) nobody likes me. not even myself. how do you explain the self-loathing part then?
6) i can't swim. that's PATHETIC.
7) i got dumped by a dumb. shit, how sad.
8) i'm seriously ugly. another good reason.
9) i can't face the world again. they seem to enjoy tormenting me with their jokes.
10) i can't SING. and what do i want to be when i grow up? so ironic.
11) i'm not a good writer.
actually, the main reason why i should die is i'm useless and ugly-looking.
ALL WRONG.
why am i not the perfect girl next door with the sweet smile and a kickass brain that never stops churning out witty comments that earn bright and wide smiles and hearty laughs all around.
why am i not the perfect girl who melts your heart like chocolate in the sun?
why am i not the perfect girl you enjoy being with and don't find a drag to talk to?
why am i the girl you never seem to look at? why am i the girl who's stupidly ugly and dastardly brainless? why am i the girl that talks rubbish when she's nervous and then end up wrecking everything? why do i feel that the best thing to stuff in my mouth to shut me up is my foot?
why am i such a masochist to think such thoughts that further aggravate how i'm feeling?
I'M A SADISTIC MASOCHIST.
why?
