jolyn dislikes long profiles, they reveal too much, and where's the enigma in that? apart from that, jolyn is also an ugly monster, and if you have something against ugly people, then well, too bad.

jolyn adores music, androgynous boys, shark(boy)s, pink spiders, robots, black and red, the word 'awesome', musicians, and referring to herself as the third person, a trait she picked up from uncle goh.



(in no particular order)

ryan; yiling; elsia; cherie; tharsh; evelynwong; see ler1; see ler2; jumalia; kimberly; denise; dalila; weiping; nurul; shaun; kelvin; jessica; candice; grace; shyaza; chekseen; amirah; jaan; jedidah; nadzirah; juliana; aqilah; charlton; qixuan; aqila; xinyi; sili; samantha; melissa; jolene; nadia; nurul; suetfar; armeeza; joanna; melissa; sakinah; peishi; gurvin; wuyi; yingying; jennifer; dionne; peiwen; zakkiyah; azrina; estee; fiona; germaine; jiaqi; shirlynn; jacqueline; joshua; qianyun;

grouphug; ryan; postsecret; kennysia; xiaxue; levan; translation; dictionary; edison; youtube;

untold prophesy
lingyu
deborah
khairiah
cheryl
alvin

foto decadent ; moargh ; bias-ED.

iPod [video], sharkb0izx 101, scene hair, a lot of clothes, tongue, navel and lip piercings, shopping spree, a million billion trillion gazillion dollars, effective weight loss, accessories, skinnies, BILL!, a lot of moshing, 69 hours in a day, more gigs! ask me and i'll tell you

thirteenth day [unlucky, no doubt (: ]

i feel like i'm being torn by my friends. i kinda read ying's blog, and i saw the last part of the entry. i think it's referring to me. she says [i assume, about our friendship] that she doesn't know what to say around me anymore. and i know that really stinks. it's as if you have to watch your actions and words, it's the unnatural feeling that you don't belong and then you kinda avoid that person. i want to tell her that we're still best friends.

sometimes i think we're drifting apart. slowly...i don't want to lose the tight bond we created. don't you think it'll go to waste?! i've been hanging around more with halimatul, but she's my partner! you naturally hang with your partner when you like her, and think of her as a good friend!

and yiling...i know you don't like her, but i'm not saying i don't like her tagging along with me. i just think she's pretty okay as a friend, but that doesn't mean she's going to take your place. nobody can take your place. i don't want to avoid you because of this yiling. yiling and i are on different wavelengths.

and when everyone knows i'm gonna quit band, they get mad at me. aqila, you and i were once super good friends. now? i don't think so. she looks at me weird, and i wonder what i did wrong. it's not my fault i can't play my instrument. i know it's selfish, and not a reason. but i still think i'm better off with a new cca. don't you think so? band makes me completely miserable. i dread tuesdays and thursdays. i can't rest well, if i keep dreading monday, tuesdays, wednesdays and thursdays.

when it comes to sunday, i start panicking. band's on tuesday. no more rest! you know the feeling?! that's why i absolutely detest this bloody cca. i'm not a bandit! my interests are else where. i don't want to know how to play 'majulah singapura' on an instrument.

i wanted percussion, and they gave me something else. don't you think i get the right to choose now?! stupid sir was prejudiced against me. and now i'm dead.

they told me to look for ruixian, or yaru. BAHH. i wonder what they'll do. convince me to attend band?! i'm going to shake my head and then walk away.

my back hurts from carrying that heavy bag. i shoved all my books in, i don't even need those books! it's cos of the damn bloody tan meimei la. maths test before assembly? we had to rush, and i guess i pretty much flunked the whole maths test. die. it was bloody tough, i don't know what they're actually asking for. out of 5 questions, i couldn't do two. sure fail. i'm not that confident about the other three questions either.

after school, i went to j8 with yiling and rachel [we needed to convince her, and that took so long]. i didn't bother asking ying - not because i don't want her there, but because i know she'll hate me for bringing yiling. i couldn't possibly tell yiling "i don't want you to go because ying says no!" what would that make me?! an invertabrate.

yiliing asked me out first. if i told someone who organized the party she's uninvited, wouldn't that be totally stupid?! i hope nobody told ying, because i would have a difficult time explaining to her why she couldn't go.

sighhs. the fights, the fights. caught in the middle.

today, we had our head prefect nominees prepare a special speech. i think the most outstanding speaker is achala (: the supposedly "cool" and "aloof" one. but her speech was really interesting! thumbs up! and i think she's the best during the questions-and-answer session.

i'm caught. who to vote?

i won't vote for sining, because it's stated in her blog that she doesn't want to be the head prefect. and i saw the way she delivered her speech. do i want her to be the leader? no thank you. ((:

it's a tough fight between dhilshad, amelia and achala.

may the best prefect win (:

anyway. we went to j8, right? loll. know what we did there? we just walked around, and i contemplated piercing my ears. then we bought sweets from minitoons, and then i went 77th street and humiliated myself.

i'm used to it. now who cares?

then we went home.

boringggg. remind me to drag ying along and tharsh too! they haven't meet yet. soon. very soon ((:

tralala. then i got upset cos my reflection sucks. i hate mirrors. please destroy all. thnk you.

jolyn is ugly.

thanks for trying to comfort me, ryan. but i know i'm not cute. :p

i'm far, far, far from being kawaii.

today, they said something with amused me. i supposedly have muscular legs [thanks, can you say i have long, slim legs instead?] and halimatul asked me if i work out.

ehh. no. i'm too lazy. now that you've mentioned it. maybe i will ?

but.....nahh.

they told me to stop cutting. they'll be many, many scars. (:

lol. sadd. why should i care? if you don't then i won't.

do you?

a day to tom's birthday and he has gone MIA.

jolyn's sadddd.