jolyn dislikes long profiles, they reveal too much, and where's the enigma in that? apart from that, jolyn is also an ugly monster, and if you have something against ugly people, then well, too bad.

jolyn adores music, androgynous boys, shark(boy)s, pink spiders, robots, black and red, the word 'awesome', musicians, and referring to herself as the third person, a trait she picked up from uncle goh.



(in no particular order)

ryan; yiling; elsia; cherie; tharsh; evelynwong; see ler1; see ler2; jumalia; kimberly; denise; dalila; weiping; nurul; shaun; kelvin; jessica; candice; grace; shyaza; chekseen; amirah; jaan; jedidah; nadzirah; juliana; aqilah; charlton; qixuan; aqila; xinyi; sili; samantha; melissa; jolene; nadia; nurul; suetfar; armeeza; joanna; melissa; sakinah; peishi; gurvin; wuyi; yingying; jennifer; dionne; peiwen; zakkiyah; azrina; estee; fiona; germaine; jiaqi; shirlynn; jacqueline; joshua; qianyun;

grouphug; ryan; postsecret; kennysia; xiaxue; levan; translation; dictionary; edison; youtube;

untold prophesy
lingyu
deborah
khairiah
cheryl
alvin

foto decadent ; moargh ; bias-ED.

iPod [video], sharkb0izx 101, scene hair, a lot of clothes, tongue, navel and lip piercings, shopping spree, a million billion trillion gazillion dollars, effective weight loss, accessories, skinnies, BILL!, a lot of moshing, 69 hours in a day, more gigs! ask me and i'll tell you

tag replies:
cherie mei
lol. you delete your name only arh? did you check your posts? see whether you got write your sch name and whatsort...the principal will scold you? )):

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I'M SICK - as in down with the flu sick.
I'M MAD - as in crazy mad.
I'M DYING - as in one foot in the grave dead.

i could get pneumonia, and die. if i do, please visit my funeral and forget me not. i'm like a scar in your memory. sorry that i'm taking up too much brainspace. oh wait. even if i drop down dead right at this moment, no one would care. do you?

because you don't care, i'm not gonna care too ((:

i hate myself.

that's why i 'tortured' (that's what yiling said, but it's not THAT dramatic) myself. i wanted to make myself sick, so i did something so foolish. today was raining, so it was super cold. i switched on both the air-conditioner and the fan. then i bathed in cold water. then i sat under the fan and made myself so effing cold.

i'm sick. down with the flu and fever.

i'm sad.

i don't know why. sometimes the feeling of depression just pulls you right in, down down down down until you can't stand it and just commit suicide.

maybe it'll happen to me too. maybe i'll get sucked in, and then i get so caught up in my own problems and just DIE. i wonder what it feels like to be someone normal. someone who doesn't get the urge to slit her wrists every few seconds. someone who is HAPPY for once.

i've been sad for so long, i forgot the feeling of happiness. am i going to be this unhappy for the rest of my life? if i do pass on, and leave this world, i would like to thank the people who made my life as pleasant as they could. i could list them out, but i think these people know who they are. because whenever i'm with them, they make me feel so much better.

sometimes i just want to stay in school forever. with halimatul, khai and yiling. they make me feel much better. they console me, and insist i don't suck (i do, but it's good to BELIEVE in lies once in a while).

is it ok to lie? yes, it is. sometimes. it depends. i remember a story tmm told us. i shan't narrate it, because it would take me so long to do it. but lying is alright - at the right times.

i don't want to act like a saint, but i lied - many times. to my friends, to my blog. to everybody.

and sometimes it's good to come clean.

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halimatul is THE BEST partner anyone can ever have. i'm telling you. she just cracks me up. halimatul reads romance novels :p and mdm faridah chided her for it.

the ying problem hasn't been solved. but i can say it has improved. from yesterday, when both of us were silent to today, we talked abit. A TEENSY WEENSY BIT. we talked about...guess what? SLUGS :D and elf boots.

we were forced by gao lao shi to sit outside during lesson time. YES. we damn pro, can? holiday homework undone. SO PRO LA.

the tcher was fuming. decided that now's a good time to pull my socks up (not literally, duh) and STUDY HARDDDD.

some people can kill me.

i've given up on ___.

to all the girls out there: don't let any guy bring you down, cos it so ain't worth it. they're just bastards with no hearts and a hunger for sex. ((:

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i really want to laugh at halimatul and yiling. these people are so cute. LOL. the person they see me as is:

-attractive
-crazy
-good hearted
-funny
-friendly
-cool
-happy go lucky
-mature
-cheerful
- _ _ _ _ _ _ NOT SAYING. cos they think i like ___.
-perfect
-purrfect
-good personality
-helpful
-optimist (HUH? i'm a born pessimist)
-kind
-neat
-tidy
-fair
-always happy
-smiley

and whatever i wrote, they cancelled it out. -.-"

i think you missed out stupid.
fat.
ugly.
irritating.

AND SUCKKAYYEEE.

cos jolyn tan is sucky.
she sucks.