jolyn dislikes long profiles, they reveal too much, and where's the enigma in that? apart from that, jolyn is also an ugly monster, and if you have something against ugly people, then well, too bad.

jolyn adores music, androgynous boys, shark(boy)s, pink spiders, robots, black and red, the word 'awesome', musicians, and referring to herself as the third person, a trait she picked up from uncle goh.



(in no particular order)

ryan; yiling; elsia; cherie; tharsh; evelynwong; see ler1; see ler2; jumalia; kimberly; denise; dalila; weiping; nurul; shaun; kelvin; jessica; candice; grace; shyaza; chekseen; amirah; jaan; jedidah; nadzirah; juliana; aqilah; charlton; qixuan; aqila; xinyi; sili; samantha; melissa; jolene; nadia; nurul; suetfar; armeeza; joanna; melissa; sakinah; peishi; gurvin; wuyi; yingying; jennifer; dionne; peiwen; zakkiyah; azrina; estee; fiona; germaine; jiaqi; shirlynn; jacqueline; joshua; qianyun;

grouphug; ryan; postsecret; kennysia; xiaxue; levan; translation; dictionary; edison; youtube;

untold prophesy
lingyu
deborah
khairiah
cheryl
alvin

foto decadent ; moargh ; bias-ED.

iPod [video], sharkb0izx 101, scene hair, a lot of clothes, tongue, navel and lip piercings, shopping spree, a million billion trillion gazillion dollars, effective weight loss, accessories, skinnies, BILL!, a lot of moshing, 69 hours in a day, more gigs! ask me and i'll tell you

9th day.

i wonder why is it ME who always gets hurt?! ugh. some people are just cowards, they say something, then they go offline immediately. i couldn't question him. he says he wants nothing to do with me, and then asked if i had fun cursing him. then he says he doesn't want to disturb me any further, then goes offline. OKAYYY. so i wanted to fire back.

why are you angry with me when i'm the one who should be mad at you?
why can't i scold you, after what you did to me?
why must you talk about me behind your back? i didn't do anything to you, did i?
why do you have to push the blame on others?

SELF-DENIAL. how useless can this chap get?

i want to reinforce that ugly people deserve respect. i may be ugly, but i am still a person capable of feelings.

and i want to tell that *bitch* that he's not ALL THAT, you know? this matter has been blown up, and rumours are spreading like a bushfire. i want to know WHAT i did wrong. i wonder if he's making himself out to be vulnerable, and the victim in this game.

if you're the victim, what am i? did i do anything wrong? so it's okay for you to BITCH about me, but it's not okay for ME to scold you? GOD. can someone please help him? what can of reasoning can he give for this?

case closed. i don't want to talk about broken hearts and fucking LIES anymore.

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i want to thank adrian and yinghui (:
the people who helped me.
the people who cared.
the selflessness they displayed.
thank you.

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halimatul asked me today "why you cut yourself? i know you feel very down...you these few days never talk much already. but girls get mood swings...sometimes you're so happy then after that a few minutes later, you so down and you don't know why. did something happen? don't be sad, ok? it's friday, be happy."

"yay." i said, and she laughed. "you and your yays."

i didn't mean it when i said yay, and i guess she knew it too.

we had P.E and then jogging. OW. i managed to run, but i was so fuming mad, i left khairiah to bite the dust. she was mad at me. SORRY. rage just makes me run better.

lingyu was sick today, and i helped her to the sickbay. LOL. i think we looked like a bunch of lesbians because i linked my hands with her. TAN MEI MEI stopped us. =P

i don't want to take the MRT anymore. i'm afraid i might see *ahem*. i'm afraid i might end up slashing his face with the two [yes, TWO please] penknifes i keep in my bag. i might disfigure it and then go to the woodbridge hospital.

i might be going out next tuesday, to watch initial D (again. it's not just edison i love, okay!). i wanna pierce my ear again. i'm not afraid of piercing my ear. it doesn't hurt as much as a BGR.

i'm just afraid my mum won't let me. i asked her, and she said better not. i don't care. i'm not afraid of pain. i think.

okayyyy. i'm going to look for a skin.

please don't ask me about junren, ok?
i'm sick of him.
a bastard.
a bitch.
motherfucker.]


i'm so tempted to come up with a respect-ugly-people campaign.
i'm ugly. i'm A PERSON WITH FEELINGS.
shunning me won't make me feel any better, alrights.
think about it.